I think we could all agree that it is easy for me to worry after 2 miscarriages. Right? But deep, deep down I know that God has a plan for us. He knows how long we will have this baby with us and His plan is the best plan. And this baby has been part of God's plan from the very beginning.
God is able to do immeasurably more than all we can ask or imagine. Eph 3:20
But when the spotting starts back up again - I worry. Even though the doctor says it is totally normal and not to worry. And even though, that too, is part of the plan. Because, once apon a time in February 2008, the spotting got worse and it was all over.
Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this. Psalms 37: 3-5
And when it is time for the Lovenox and I sit, ready with needle in hand, unable to do it for minutes on end, I worry. Am I doing the right thing? Do I need this? Is there any way for this medicine to hurt the baby? And I know it is going to hurt.
Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised. Romans 4: 18 – 22
It is so hard for me to take all of these medicines. I will do anything and everything to keep this baby growing inside of me. But I don't want to do too much. And I don't want to do anything that will risk the baby's health. But I need to trust my doctor who tells me that all of these things won't hurt the baby. It's just that there are so many things.....
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.Romans 15:13
Will you say a prayer for this baby and for me?