I have a pattern. In this pattern, I stay very calm, cool and collected about all things baby for 2-3 weeks after my last appointment. And as my appointment approaches, I start to worry. And maybe even panic. :) And that was yesterday. And I feel a little bad about said panicking, but then I tell myself that 2008 was a very hard year -- and if I need a little extra attention from the doctor, well that's OK.
So I was worried. Worried that I couldn't feel the baby like I used to, worried that the movements I was feeling were itty bitty contractions. And worried because my specialist (remember Dr. Wonderful?) had told me he saw a little issue that could cause early labor. So all added together, that was a lot to think about.
So I went to see the doctor. And I was expecting him to maybe be busy, grouchy, and aware that I didn't need to be there. But he was wonderful! When he walked in, I asked him if Dr. Wonderful had warned him that I might be a bit high maintenance. He laughed and said that I was not in that category yet. Well, I got to hear the baby's sweet heartbeat on the doppler and then he did an ultrasound to check that little issue - that appears to be a non-issue and probably does not need to be advertised on a public blog! hahaa. But in the checking of said issue, I got to see the baby! Only the baby's head and one waving arm -- which is probably good, because I would really prefer to find out the whole boy/girl answer with the baby's daddy! Not that I wouldn't have peaked.....Trav had given me permission to peak...No such luck!!!!!
So, one crazy busy day later, I feel very relieved once again. Everything is just fine!! (And at 17 weeks, baby movements come and go since there is still so much room in there!)
And I am fairly certain I can make it until Tuesday before getting all worried again.
And what I do know, deep down, is that I should have more faith that I did yesterday. Because God has it all under control. That is hard to tell myself in the middle of all the worry, but afterwards it makes lots of sense. :)
Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.